Once again I've injured myself. The frustrating thing this time is that I did nothing to cause this pain. That's right. I've been diligently going to yoga, stretching, and doing my back exercises. And wham my back flares up. I have a slow disc protrusion. Yep sounds as ugly as it is.
All this pain and injury time is really starting to get to me. It's hard because I do everything right - I take care of my body and I still get injured. Sometimes Ithink I'd be better off sitting on the couch doing knitting.
Of course a number of people have told me things like: "It could be worse", "This is good for you", "You probably need the rest", etc. Well quite frankly I'm tired of being told this crap. This is not good for me and I don't need to learn anything else about patience and being appreciative for what I have.
I'd like to go one season without getting injured. I'd like to train and race. If I crash my bike or do something silly like fall down the stairs then I should get hurt. I shouldn't get hurt from training, stretching, and living a clean life.
In case you can't tell this is really starting to eat at me. I trust my physiotherapist and massage therapist to get me back to normal very quickly. In the meantime I've got to start finding the root cause of the problem and I've got to get it fixed. I don't really know how much more of this I can take.
I've ordered a book that deals with the mind-body connection and back pain. A number of people have recommended it so I'll give it a shot. The next step is to find some other kind of specialist who might be able to give me some more answers, clues, advice, whatever.
I just want to ride my bike and be pain free. At the age of 33 I really don't think that is too much to ask.