The right path

Lately I have been working hard on finding my right path in life. It is an effort that for a while was really eating at me and actually starting to make me feel a little crazy. You see I am convinced that I was put here on this Earth to do something big. Something that will make a difference to others. Originally I thought I could do this with my pen - so I studied journalism. But I am not working as a journalist. Sure I am writing but I am doing technical writing. So I told myself to find my right path through volunteer work - I coached hockey, I volunteered at a school, I taught taekwon-do and I did some volunteer writing.

Still, not satisified. I really feel that I'm here to make a difference. Not cure for cancer difference, but still something huge. I just really don't know how I'm supposed to do it. For a while I was convinced I had missed my sign - that I wasn't working hard enough to find that one thing that was going to let me make my mark. To make a difference.

This really stressed me out. To the point where I was not very happy - convinced I had messed up and the plan was shot to hell.

But after some soul searching and conversations, I have realized that it is really the small things that I do, that make a difference as well. In the last week I have had two people tell me that I inspire them. Wow - did I feel awesome.

But still deep down I'm looking for that big thing - what is it? where can I find it? how will I recognize it? I believe that whatever it is will involve writing, so I'm making myself write as much as I can - in hopes that I will discover my path.

I don't know if I'm the only person who deals with this issue - of what am I "really" supposed to be doing here? I don't want to live a life of mediocrity - I want to grab life, live it to its fullest and make a difference along the way.

I guess I have to keep doing what I'm doing and hopefully before it is not too late I will see clearly what it is I'm missing.

Comments

[Pascale]

Read a book lately about exactly that. It's called: "The Soul's Code: In Search of Character and Calling" by James Hillman. Publisher is: Random House. I recommend it. And yes, I believe you are right. Maybe the book can help you figure it out. Good luck.

[Vicki]

Thanks Pascale - I'll look up that book.
Just received a new book yesterday that might help as well: 48 Days to the Work you Love: And Leaving the Job You Hate.

[Godwin Sawuta]

i cherist the story that touch my life, and I need things that will move my life better and further development