So on Friday I was actually able to positive about my injury. After all, it could have been much worse. But really, I think Friday and most of the weekend I was in a bit of shock. Now that I've had some time to think and have things setttle in - I'm really ticked off. Yes, angry would be the appropriate emotion.
Another season has been ended early. This time I only got two races in Belgium before it ended. Very very frustrating. I'm not one to feel sorry for myself but right now, I would really like to know why I keep getting handed the raw deal? Why do I have the bad luck? Why can't I have the luck for once?
I know that part of what makes me a strong person is that I can always dig a bit deeper and push up and over the obstacles. But frankly, I'm a bit tired of this. I'd like to just be able to have things "go my way".
I was having a good year and coming into some good form. The weather is perfect here in Belgium. I have some great friends here. Really, it was shaping up to be a "dream" season.
Now I have to sit here and rest. My hard-earned fitness and strength will disappear. I'm not even able to do yoga or any stretches. Just sit.
It is hard to be positive (and I know I should be) but I think I need a few days of feeling angry first.
(Just so you know I did see another doctor today - I've fractured the Transverse Process on my L3. I'm lucky to have not damaged my spinal cord.)
So, what does all of this mean? If anything - don't take a damn thing for granted. Don't waste another day "wishing" you could do something. Don't waste another moment watching television shows when you could be out doing something. Life is short and opportunities don't come often. Realize this and make the most of what you do have and can do.